Humility

In the last four months God's taken a sledgehammer to my pride; I sure hope He keeps swinging- I hated that monumental failure anyways.

We are what we sing.
The words that we say, the sentences that pass through our minds, and pictures that run past our eyes.
The thoughts that race across our mind and the way we hold ourselves.
What is the song of our life and what does it sound like?

We kid ourselves when we say that the music we listen to, the clothes we wear, the people we hang out with, and the environments we find ourselves don't affect who we are and our walk with God.

If I was married and told my wife that it didn't matter if I was hanging out with other women all the time and devoting my time to them rather than her, she'd be devastated (at least).

This is what I've learned: our pride gets in the way, and God out of jealous love, destroys all that gets in between Himself and His beloved.
That is, if His beloved asks for it.
I asked for Him- He pulled out a sledgehammer.
Our pride gets in the way of humility, if fact, they are the antithesis of each other.
When pride is erased, or destroyed, humility can have its rightful place and intimacy can ensue.

Thank God for being jealous. I'm so happy our God loves us enough to destroy the competition.
He could just eat us up He loves us so...

Here are some lyrics to ponder on, these have been soaking in my brain.

We are what we sing:

"So, in this hour, let everything I do, all for this moment, everything's for You; my heart is open- it will end...so please take my life and use it- I'm ready"

"World, I've overcome you by my song and the blood of a Son"

"Here I am Dear Lord tasting hints of fame, I don't want it anymore if its not You that I gain; I want to fall at Your feet, I don't want to fall out of Your peace. I understand"

"Oh let us adore the Son of Glory dressed in Love; open up your gates before Him: crown Him, stand Him up"

"Open our Open our hearts, To see the things That make Your heart cry, To be the church The You would desire. A light to be seen"

"Break down our pride and the walls we've built up inside; our earthly crowns and all our desires- we lay down at Your feet"

"With everything we will shout for Your glory; with everything we will shout forth Your praise"

"Oh to grace how great a debtor, daily I'm constrained to be and let thy goodness like a fetter bind my wandering heart to Thee; prone to wander Lord I feel it, prone to leave the God I love. Here's my heart Lord take and seal it, seal it for Thy courts above".

A lot of these deal with intimacy and love that only comes after a lot of honesty and pride demolishing.
I do not claim to have laid hold of humility yet, but I promise you, that God is hitting hard.
I love Him so much though.
Be in prayer for me as I keep going through this humbling phase, and I hope this forces some of us to be more honest with ourselves and our pride...
I love you all.
-Josh