10,000

This morning I woke up and felt like I was not fit to call myself a Christian.
I felt woke up feeling downcast and as a failure.
I was freaking out.
I was freaking out because the night before I had been in Love with God and when I rose from my bed, the Love was gone.
I was reminded of everything that I had done in my past.
I was reminded of my failures.
I was reminded of how unfaithful I have been to Him in the past.
Then I was set straight.
I was reminded that I've overcome that.
By the blood of a Son.
God Loves me, and will ALWAYS love me, because my Jesus died, and is not sitting right next to His Father in Heaven telling His Father that I'm His.

Last night I heard this song, called Ten Thousand.
The entire song is gold, but the chorus is extremely profound.
I shouted this out loud on my knees this morning, in my truck, in the parking lot outside the place I work.
World, I've overcome you. I've overcome you, satan. I've overcome you, with the blood of a Son, who ever lives and pleads for me.

I realized, and was reminded of how much my God loves me. He loves me enough to humble, to dwell with me in intimacy. To lift me up and be with me, despite what I've done.
He's forgotten.
He overcame the world with the blood of His Son.

I'm reminded of "Before the Throne":

When satan tries to tempt me to despair
and tells me of the guilt within
upward I look and see Him there
who made an end of all my
Because a sinless Savior died
my sinful soul, is counted free
for God the Just is satisfied
to look on Him and pardon me...

To quote Jesus: It is FINISHED

My sin has come to an end.
I am no longer a slave to the flesh.
I am a slave to righteousness.

I do not belong to satan.

I am my Beloveds,
my Beloved is mine.
His banner over me is love.

I've overcome you world.
I've overcome you...

Amen.

(here's the song)
Then Thousand.

Ten thousand glimmering like coals in our chest
Ball bearings drawn to the magnetic breath
Of ten thousand weeping with wings on their tears
Amidst ten thousand voices for ten thousand years
For ten thousand graves yawning unlocked and unlatched
Now ten thousand holes with rocks on their backs
Ten thousand tombs gaping wide singing the praise
Of ten thousand bodies unlaced and unlaid

As the ten thousand highways unfold their doors
For the ten thousand standing on Nineveh's shores
Where the blood of a husband silences wars
For the girl who rises to meet him
And she sings

World, I have overcome you
World, I have overcome you
World, I have overcome
By my song and the blood of a son

Ten thousand rivers
Run red like my veins
Where the bones of men hum
Like a rattling cage
For sinew to cling to
For wind to remain
In ten thousand lungs
For ten thousand days
Breathing like a choir
Of holes in the ground
Where the cynical have lain
Where the cynical go down
Save the gravity of time
Lets go of her drowned
Like ten thousand sparrows
Unlocked and unwound

As the ten thousand highways unfold their doors
For the ten thousand standing on Nineveh's shores
Where the blood of a husband silences wars
For the girl who rises to meet him
And she sings

World, I have overcome you
World, I have overcome you
World, I have overcome
By my song and the blood of a son