my weakness does not change His greatness

Today I felt like I had no friends that were nearby;
I felt like I was alone and had nobody there to support me.
I felt like all of my close friends were either 250 miles away, or non existent;
I felt like I lost connection with my current friends in this area.

I sent a text message to several of my friends, letting them know about my brokenness and sadness over this seemingly overwhelming situation.
Many of my friends responded with prayers of love over me and prayers of perseverance.

Two things are ironic about this (as my good friend Lauren pointed out).

1. "I sent a message to several of my (good) friends"
2. "My friends responded.

If I didn't have any friends, I wouldn't have had anyone to text my problems to; consequently, I would not have had anyone to respond to my pleas for prayer.

Granted, some of my closest friends may be far off, but they still help me :)

The season of my soul right now is learning how to persevere through Christs testing over me. Suffering, if you will, for Him; consequently, storing up treasures in heaven. I keep saying, God, test me, so I can grow closer to You. I am drawing near to You, and You will draw near to me (referenced in James 4:8). I also know that my soul CRAVES God so very badly; I love God so much. I have learned that God is sufficient beyond compare. He is "exceedingly abundant" (referenced in Ephesians 3:20).

Now, If He, God, is exceedingly abundant, it poses a question.
Why the heck am I freaking out? And, more importantly, why am I not realizing Gods sufficiency in my life?

If my friends fail, If I fail, He is enough.
I wrote a song stating that He is my portion, He is my prize.
Saying it is one thing, but believing that He is enough for me is so much harder to do.

Right now, I ask for prayer over this part of my life.
I pray that you pray for me :)
I pray that God provides, which, He does.
He has provided people in my life that love God with their entirety, and who fear God.
I ask that you will pray that I will always know of Gods sufficiency in my life.
I ask that you will pray that I will continually love God, and fear Him.
I ask that you will pray for Gods comfort over me.
I ask that you will pray for Gods peace over me.
I ask that you will pray that God will continually reveal new facets of Himself to me, so I can fall even more in love with Him every day.

Thank you so much for your support, my friends.
You are such an encouragement.
I thank God every time I can for you, because you are such a comfort.
I love each and every one of you.
I don't even know how I could be here without you.

God manifests His love for me by providing friends that can share it with me.
And I, in them.

I love you all.

-Josh